-S.I.G.H-

Not really in a good mood today! Looking into my assignments & books, my eyes will definitely welled with tears! sigh! i really don't know how can i come out with a piece of essay to be handed in 19 days from now! shit! then, there's another group assignment! just get a report from lecturer today & the results as well as analysis seems to be so negative! i don't even understand some of the details given! it's all figures! i love figures a lot but i don't know why this time, i hate it so much! i don't know what is he trying to tell us in that sheet of paper! mileage..assets..capital..fare per seat mile..bla bla bla... i never touch on finance before! never even have a single knowledge on accounting nor marketing! i'm going to die this time! i don't even have the "heart" to continue planning & thinking for all the work.. all the assignments!

how i wish i'm back to college having lecturers that i've once had... although luct sucks but at least there's a few lecturers who are really good! i really learned a lot from them & not like now! i know it's all mostly self-study here but it should not be until the stage of reading out what's on the slides to students & ask students to figure out assignments themselves by reading through the textbook! what's the purpose of paying the uni so much & in return what i get is all this? i've been to classes for 3 weeks! in this 3 entire weeks, what i can said is "I LEARNED NOTHING!"
I only learn how to figure out assignments myself! how to stress out a piece of shit to be handed in before the deadline!

i'm really wondering, am i in the right course?! why can they simply offer me courses which i don't even have a single knowledge about it? Whoever read this, remember! do not look for agents if you planned to further your studies! they are helping you because of money! (unless you know them well).... regret for coming over!

If i'm not here today, i might be working in an ad agency or somewhere else..getting paid monthly. or...maybe... if i'm not here today, i might be getting my degree very soon in a much more comfortable surronding! i might be learning more than what i had here!